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Tuesday, 1 December 2009

I Set A Fire Just To See The Flame

"Well I jumped up, spit in the air, fell on the ground, asked which was the way back home? He said take a right at the light, keep going straight until right, and then boy you're on your own"
Blinded by The Light - Bruce Springsteen

Please understand the following post. All of you, I come in peace. I hold no weapons and no bad intentions.

I looked back at the war that we had and all the trash I wrote, and I thought to myself: Damn! I was stabbing myself in the chest all the time, and too full of my stupid self to realize it.

This is an honest apology. Please accept it from my heart. I know that I have been jumping the gun, making a fuss about my copyrights and all, but really, I'm sorry.

It took many years for me to finally come to realize that no one is perfect, and with all due respect, I think you should too. I searched the world for what was actually at my doorstep. Silly right? But the world today is like that. It's hard to be satisfies with what we've got.

I'm a vengeful person, and I get jealous easily. I'm sorry for letting this ruin our friendship. I should never have made it look so bad. I don't want to blame my mother here, but the pressure she puts on me is pretty big. I know you face it too. We should actually just help each other instead of hitting each other.

Yes, I know I started this. Your last post actually gave be a good beating with the ugly stick. It made me realize all this. That's why, even though it may not seem so, I want to end this. Please hear me out. I know that it may not end so easily, but I want to make a start.

I've been blinded by the light of my own pride. I failed to see all your good deeds that actually helped me. And if it's not too late, I would like to say thank you.

You're a great friend to have. But when I looked back, I only saw the fights only. I chose to look at the negative side. Now I look back once again, and I never knew that I missed so much in hindsight.

Please excuse my jealousy. I have things about myself that I have to change. In fact, thank you for helping me realize that.

You gave me a piece of advice once, and that was that everything will pass. I hope this feeling of hatred will, and the clouds between us will dissolve.

If there's anything I forgot to apologize about, I'm sorry. I hope you accept this apology with a full heart. I really, really want to take back what I said. I think you already know that when i hurt someone else, I hurt myself.


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