"Well here we are again. It's always such a pleasure."
Want You Gone - Jonathan Coulton
It really has been a long time hasn't it? Five months have gone by without an update and I am feeling the bite of the guilt. Gone are those days when I blogged almost weekly and had all the time in the world.
Dear Princess Celestia,
Forgive me for the long break without updating. My bad. I have been very busy. Even when I had nothing to do, I would find something to keep me active at all times. It kind of expleains my workaholic habits I seem to have picked up.
Final semester in University is now in motion and it's off to a rolling start. It's barely even the first week and the assignments are already streaming in. Looks like a long semester ahead. Time has really gotten a hold of me and the world has changed so much. Things just keep getting worse by the day. Everytime I listen to the news I get a constant nag that I could be somewhere prettier or nicer than where I am. I guess some bad things have slipped though as well.
In the past five months I have seen dreams crumble before my eyes. The struggle and the pain of having to plough through life knowing that the next turning point is so closely within reach is quite frankly, crazy. Ideas start to run in my head and I suddenly change what I want to do.
Did you ever feel like this, princess? As great of a leader as you are, have you ever wanted to try something else or perhaps pursue a different line of work? It's probably a crazy job being a princess. I sure as hell can't do it. I don't have the leadership skills you posess. Though the prospect of becoming a princess is very attractive and sounds like the best damn thing, The entire package is more of a different story. Politics and having to attend to those whom you can't please is a responsibility I cannot pony up to.
But as for changing course, there have been meny times when I questioned what I was doing. 3 months ago I suddenly wanted to become a pilot. Why? I have no idea. Taking to the sky isn't really a passion for me, but being behind the wheel of an engineering marvel that makes this planet so much smaller is. Of course, it's unnecessary in Equestria. Pegasi ponies take care of that for all of you and plus, you're an alicorn. There's nothing better than having wings. It's the liberty that inspires me to want to take to the skies.
If I ever were to become a pony in Equestria, I swear I want to be a pegasus, but I'll take anything just to be there.
Then there were sudden moments when I wanted to be a baker. Perhaps with some inspiration from the local Ponyville bakery, Sugarcube Corner. And I can never forget my desire to become a forensics expert and also an engineer. What kind of engineer you may ask? I wanted to become a chemical engineer, mechanical engineer, software engineer, aviation engineer and even a quantum physicist. My life was a mess and still is.
Thankfully my choice in this course has locked me in this path and prevented me from pursuing these wild dreams. I have no idea what would have happened if I decided to pull out a tangent and follow it. Maybe I would find a new calling, but I will never know because I didn't do it. I simply couldn't.
Anyway, I though I would just enlighten you on my mental journey through university. It's time for me to buckle down and hit the road. The final semester is calling and I sure as hell hope I'm ready.
Your loyal subject,